7 April The Accident

I was on this main road of Surathkal, right before Sadanand Super Market. I had to cross the road and reach the bus stop. I was completely lost in thought. You see, like in the movies, not being able to listen to the loud horns of heavy vehicles.
"The last thing I remembered before everything went blank was the driver of the vehicle which went right behind me yelling something in kannada or may be tulu, I can't even recognise which is which. I was totally out. No clue of what is happening. I felt someone lifted me and then again put me down. No sense of vision or sound. I was feeling as light as a feather but then I realised that there was no part of my body which was responding to my brain. I only knew my heart is still beating because I know I was thinking which means my brain was still getting blood. Did I get hit? Was it a fatal blow? Will I not survive? Is this "The End"? I was almost sure that it was all over? I started thinking about what was going to happen after me?  The faint light in my thought was getting fainter. I wanted someone to inform my parents. I thought of my belongings back at the hostel, I wanted some one to send them back to my parents. Then I thought of my friends. They wouldn't have to hear any more lame jokes from me. The only remaining Orangutan (as what Vishwas calls me) would be dead and there species would be extinct. People won't be bugged with all kinds of "weird-for-them-yet-interesting-for-me" ideas which I had. NITK will be little peaceful, at least the Grey Block B Wing, with one loud fellow gone.
It was almost over. Even the last bit of light had gone and it was then that I heard something from my heart.  'Oy ... I am still beating .... I will stop only when you give up because then there will be no one who would need me. If you don't respond then I will understand that you have already given up and I would stop beating this bloody blood, half of which is going out anyway'. I started thinking again. There was a light again. This time brighter than the previous one though. I told myself, come one man what life have I lived, never achieved anything, never took up any great task and finished successfully, never gave back anything to my parents, what about the things I have always wanted to do, what about the great time I have always wanted to spend with friends, what about the "be a royal mech" feeling of mine, who the hell will give me my B Tech for my five and half semesters study that too when I am dead, shit !! I just realised, I haven't even had a candle light dinner under starry sky on full moon night near the beach with my girl friend (for which I have to find a girl first which itself would take few more years). What!!!!! I just have to go back, I just haven't lived any life man and the light got brighter and things seemed to be getting back to normal I could hear voices and was getting back vision too. . . . . . . . ."
Man those thoughts were weird :P . They kept driving me to think even more about how to come back to life when at the verge of death. I finally realised that my bus had come and I was getting late, I had to go back to mess for dinner. I wonder if one can really avoid death just by the will to live. May be I am just thinking too much. I should put a stop here. Until Next Time.. have fun, take care.

Cheers
Aditya

P.S. I may not have put this one so well but just for clarification ... all that is in double quotes is what I was thinking when I was walking the other day on the main road of surathkal. I had crossed the road when a vehicle was coming and as soon as I crossed the thought came to my mind "what if I had stopped mid way" and there it all started. Thoughts in the quotes are true, just that there was no accident. :) Please give your review to haithisisaditya@gmail.com

6 April New Year Wishes

It always happens with me. I keep getting thoughts and I think I will put them in my blog however by the time I come and sit in front of my computer I lose the feel of the topic and I put it away for another day. Same happened even now. I had read a blog of a friend of mine who had written his true story and it was superb. There was a lot of gravity in it, kept pulling me into itself, making me want to read more and more. There is an intermission write now while he is preparing the remaining part and no doubt that will be equally good. I also thought for a moment that I should write something like that but then I really doubt if I can put it all in good enjoyable words unless I am in a really good mood to tell about my life so I leave it for a future day.

There was a blog of another friend who had written about his brainwaves and it had reminded me that I had also thought of writing about some of my brainwaves, like how I thought E=mc^2 , the famous Einstein's equation might actually be equally valid in psychology or may be it comes under philosophy. Yet again I left it for another day. I have wanted to write about what thoughts come to my mind when I see the political world surrounding me, about how good it feels when I am with my professor and friends working till after midnight hours to achieve something, about how motivated I feel with the words of my professor like 'I am not willing to die'. Day before yesterday that is on April 4 I had been to the temple as it was Ugadi (Telugu New Year). There is this place behind the temple from where you can get a wonderful view of the ocean. I always go and sit there for sometime. I had lots of thoughts which I thought could become a blog article and yet that day I couldn't type in my blog. May be from next time I will open my blog as soon as I get some thoughts which I feel like typing in the blog.

Whatever it is the first year of Telugu New Year was good. It is considered that the rest of the year will be similar to the first day of the new year and so everyone tries to make their day as good as possible. Thanks to the almighty I had a good day and I hope the year ahead will be happy to me and also to everyone else in this world :) . Wishing you all a happy new year

(Srikhara Naama Noothana Samvatsara Ugadi Subhakankshalu)
శ్రీఖర నామ నూతన సంవత్సర ఉగాది శుభాకాంక్షలు

Cheers

Aditya